April 10, 2013

Analysed

In this day and age where everything is typed out. Be it on blogs (ahem), text messages, e-mails, you know the drift. So what am I blabbering about here? I had y handwriting analysed. I should say my penmanship hasn't degenerated into the vast oblivions of the literary horizons.

The results? Here:



Judging from the way your endstrokes continue out horizontally from the word a little farther than normal before fading would seem to indicate that you are generally a giving, sharing, or reasonably generous person. You prolly aren't real stingy with your resources.
A normal first letter of a Signature indicates a fairly normal person in the ego area.
Here's another ego indicator. The larger your personal pronoun I is in proportion to other letters, the more you think of yourself and the bigger your ego or self-love is. It can also indicate overwhelming self-confidence or self-reliance. Beware of too many of these ego indicators though in a handwriting sample. It could mean trouble for you and those around you.
You said that your signature looked like it was written in a hurry. Do you go through life in a hurry too, without stopping to smell the roses along the way? Do your relationships suffer because you don't invest time in them (almost avoiding them)?
An underlined Signature points to a person who is VERY self reliant, self confident, and/or to a lessor degree, egotistical. If are also well grounded and keen-of-mind (as shone by other handwriting traits that we discuss in the second half of this test), this person will come across as quite capable of handling anything thrown at them, as indeed they often are.
If your writing slants uphill all on its own, it's generally a good thing. You are probably fairly positive about your outlook on life, and something of an optimist. A quick way to tie this trait in is to think- Onward and Upward! To infinity and beyond!
If you have normal sized handwriting, you're probably pretty normal in your overall intensity and drive. Probably normal in many other ways too, in fact.
A person with vertical, or nearly vertical handwriting, tends to get along with pretty much everyone, introverted or extroverted. Likewise, you probably like both your solitude, and a good social get together as well.
Judging from the hooks that you say are found in your writing, you can probably keep a secret well. As long as deceit and/or fears of exposure indicators are not also found in your writing (we check for some of these in part two of this selftest), being able to hold a secret is generally a good thing. But if those other indicators are also present, hooks can indicate deception as well.
If your handwriting displays very high retraced stems (no loops) in your d's and t's, you probably possess a certain amount of pride and dignity in your style and demeanor. You might find this trait in a renowned statesman or diplomat. Some people would say this makes them think of regality or royalty almost.
The style of a person's i-dot can represent several different things. The light but firm simple i-dot usually comes from people with some backbone and/or morals. People can count on you to do what's right, even if they don't agree with you.
The i-dot's placement generally represents attention to detail. Is your i-dot just about right in placement and height? Well Good! This generally signifies that you are a fairly normal person, with normal attention to detail!
Here are some items now that we can deduce about you in general, based on some of your answers, and your combinations thereof.

- You generally have the ability to keep a secret well.
- You aren't trying to hide from life and probably don't wear too many masks.
- You appear to have a bit of an ego, larger than normal. Don't let it blind you to the world around you.
- You would appear to be pretty solid, unshakeable, and completely level headed, emotionally and mentally.
- You march to the beat of your own drum, sometimes just for the simple sake of being different. You probably also rely on yourself in many ways. What other people think of you isn't super high on your priority list of things to think about.
- You have a lot of energy, and are always involved in something or other. Just be careful that you don't run people over.

- You tend to be an optimist, which generally leads to a happier life, but just be careful about getting taken advantage of by people who assume you are also naive.
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- You probably tend to get along well with people in general, and aren't completely clueless in social situations. Thus, people probably like being around you, generally speaking.
- There were no major indications yet that you could be classified as impatient or overly irritable with people.


I feel nice. Ego boost has happened. :D

March 12, 2013

Getting over him? (Part 3)


Two weeks since he left for his place and I still felt like I was going to wake up and see him muzzling his face against the pillow to fight the sunlight. I sent back his belongings that were left behind. By design or by mistake, I do not know. I guess I know why people tend to return, get rid of or just obliterate things that belonged to the other. Once it is out of sight, it’s out of mind. Helps you move on right? You have enough emotional baggage. Why add to the materialistic baggage too?

I did not date him or anything but I did feel for him. I still do. Today, he told me of his new girlfriend. Yes, two weeks and a new girlfriend. Not that I was expecting him to be celibate but give me some credit. Some credit of having made some impact of sorts! I was screaming murder in my head. A cold emotionless, tortured murder.

I want closure from many things in life and this was beginning to give me one. I think. However, the whole thing was confusing when he reacted like a worried boyfriend when I did not respond to call or messages. Which, I take for granted amongst friends. Heck! I hadn't even noticed most of the time! After he left, I threw myself into work because I wanted to keep myself busy. Thereby avoiding any distraction. Especially from him. I did keep thinking of him at idle. Wondering if he would like this or abhor that and all.

Wanted to shun all the thoughts and yet again called up for more work. Started going home later than ever only because I was working 3 jobs and settling on a salary of an intern. Despite all that, I wanted him to tell me to stop the madness, go home and rest. Friends and family did say that and I wanted him to say it like he cared for me. Instead settled for more disappointment.
Talking to him about his girlfriend wasn't painful but what was hurtful was why was I not that lucky? What did I do wrong to not have him in my life? The solitude and heartbreak on something was doomed from when he came to Mumbai anyways. I thought I was ready for nothing to happen but then I should have been ready for many other things.

He never affected me so before even when his wedding will be fixed. I guess its only because for four days, he filled a void that is now screaming for love and comfort. For the security and adoration that I long for in life. Wondering why others got so lucky and I am the collector of unrequited love's many heartbreaks and disappointments.

He can do whatever he wishes. I’ll be happy for him. But I want it too! My own love story.