March 25, 2014

Marriage- How do I figure it out?

I'm 26, and single since forever. This might be shocking for some and normal for some. I belong in to the latter category while my family, a few friends and my community thinks it is terrible.

How does one get over the judgments passed and concentrate on the voice of reason that seems to shout out from the recesses of the mind?

From "Gori Tere Pyaar mein"- Movie
While I am not averse to dating as I once was, I am not yet ready to marry the first person I meet. I do meet and greet people over cups of coffee and at times over buttered popcorn. However, my need to sanctify a relationship hasn't been aroused.

Do I think I am ready for it all? I still want to explore, get out with like minded people and see what I am made of before I take the leap. Then, once all of my so called" hippie" urges get out of my system, I might come to cross the bridge.

But then again, when it comes to marriage, especially being an "Indian" girl- emphasis on conservative bahu(daughter-in-law) in the making, I'm far from it. Kinda like my sisters here- For some examples, Ref: http://indianhomemaker.wordpress.com/tag/indian-daughters-in-law/

*manic running around in circle ensues*

I fear a lot of things that might be silly. I fear I will still be the immature spoilt child-woman who wants to live and breathe fire in the wickedly cool and torturous world of Advertising; will end up burning up the curry while my husband will "sympathise"outwardly and keep sulking about how his mother made the best food known to mankind. Ugh! Typical Indian men just can't deal with not so typical Indian women from the workforce anymore! They still follow the age old rules of the household when their mums left their jobs or their grand-mums happily produce a mini village to continue the family line and expect their wives to be equally sacrificing.

I'm going on ranting. *still running in circles* So, God, help me!!

September 19, 2013

Fire within

Setting fire to the dark, setting fire to the shame. The raging inferno grows to reach out to the lost. The towering flames keen to wipe out the cover of ignorance are now beneath your feet. Do not run and do not hide, for when the flames that engulf you now will ignite the soul within. 
Lead to enlightenment and realise your glow. The embers are the only memories of the unknown fear which are part of you, no more.  Rise to reach the sky and shine with your might for you are meant to be a star. Keep shining, keep glowing and keep growing.